無様でも良い
血を流せ
お前は生きてる
お前の自由を探せ

 poems :
  
No one wants to talk about the truth that hurts the ear
The suppressed minds

Is it a sin for me to live because I am evil?

Deep within the hell of my heart... I can't go back
A self-torture loser, not being able to see tomorrow
Suicide is the proof of life

As we're being intimate
Melting together
The eyes glaze over in white

Holding hands to bring the world together
Let's rot in the unforeseen
Future
 
The more I become intimate
The more loneliness helps me see
The clown danced like crazy and made it bloom
The flower was indeed very very beautiful
The game of life
The game
 
The censored world
The world you live in
Yeah　Turn a blind eye
That's you
Pulling up the corners of your mouth
And engaging in group violence to feel alive
The world of coercion

Being born in freedom
Being enslaved in freedom
In this world
 
Welcome to the corpse
The time has come to change
 
I don't care if I look like a fool
Bleed
You are alive
Find your freedom

Destroying the balance

I light a cigarette I can't smoke,
And try to imite you
So stupid
By pretending to be strong
The emptiness only bears tears

Can I drown in you ?
Can I devote myself to you ?
Someone, please love me

Let's bloom flowers of attempted suicide.

The sky was blue, the good old days 
When my dreams were shattered. 
It brings sadness and sorrow
The sin is endless. 

The clear unreachable darkness
I sneak a peek between my fingers
The red rips through into this world
You, with the beautiful skinny arm,
And your lie wet from the rain 
Can my lingered hope be a lie too ?
The crumbling dream spins in the blurred sky faraway
And the sky grows dark

The vanishing existence soon fades away
Even now, I don't realize the fact 
That all my cries meant nothing
Just scared the suzu cuts through the darkness 
I kill my breath with the warm subtle wind
The crumbling dream spins in the blurred sky faraway
And the sky just...

I reminisce the days up until yesterday...
And I will never again... 
The light has vanished...
Unable to make it all come true...
Never again...

I don't need anyone... 
Let it all vanish
I scream out living and bearing through it all
Beyond the darkness



24ko cylinder

Give me laugh 誰もが想う (Everyone dreams)
Give me pain 時が終われば (When the time is over)
Give me high 矛盾だらけの (In a world of contradiction)
Give me 夢を (Dreams)
Give me laugh 愛想笑い (A grin or fake smile)
Give me pain 嘘の数だけ (As much as the lies)
Give me high 行き場無くした (No place to go)
Give me 愛が (Love)

届かない君の愛情 届かない僕の愛情
Your love doesn't reach, my love doesn't not reach
今もほらね
Even now, see...
届かない君の声は 届かない僕の声も
Your voice doesn't reach, my voice doesn't reach
今もほら
Even now
けれど
Somehow


Give me laugh 抱いた数だけ (As much as we made love)
Give me pain 君を愛せる? (Can I love you?)
Give me high 矛盾だらけの (Full of contradictions)
Give me 僕が (I will)

届かない君の愛情 届かない僕の愛情
今もほらね
届かない君の声は 届かない僕の声も
今もほら
けれど

時は終わる 時は変わる 僕が君が今が焼き付く時の流れ
Time will end, time will change, like the flow of time with you, me, and now
時は止まる 時の果てに 熱を持たぬ愛に口付けて眠ろう
Time will stop, until the end, lets say good night with a kiss to a love with no fire

Give me laugh
Give me pain
Give me high
An end begins a trivial matter
It's a time to burn everything
If I could forget you without hesitation
Serious injury laughs at me
The time is changing, the passage of time burns me, you, now
Solitude laughs as it likes
Solitude laughs as it likes
You laugh, you laugh, you laugh
You laugh as you look down
The time is over, the time will stop, at the end of the time, sleeping with a kiss to unheated death
届かない君の愛情 届かない僕の愛情
今もほらね
届かない君の声は 届かない僕の声も
今もほら
夢は枯れ砂に還り 何時かまた僕の中で
夢は咲くの?
夢別れ想い出せぬ 君の声届きますか
僕の元へ けれど
時は終わる 時は変わる 僕が君が今が焼き付く時の流れ
時は止まる 時の果てに 熱を持たぬ愛に口付けて眠ろう
Solitude laughs as it likes
Solitude laughs as it likes
You laugh, you laugh, you laugh
You laugh as you look down
The time is over, the time will stop, at the end of the time, sleeping
Give me 時が終われば




アクロの丘 (Akuro no Oka)


At that place, we happened to meet.
And now we can't do anything.
In this town, we happened to meet
And now I cannot love anyone, yet...

You are now, at that hill, 
We look at this sky that we saw together
I am now, at this sky, looking at that hill where we stood together

Withered flowers, like at that time

Just one more time is enough

I want to bloom beautifully
This night, my heart and my ideals
fade into darkness

At least just for tonight
I will be by your side

I met you at this place
Where everything starts
I can't do aything right now
In this town, we happened to meet

With you and me, no one can love me now
I am now, at this sky, looking at that hill where we stood together
Withered flowers, like at that time

At least just for tonight
The fingers that were connectes came undone

I sink deep
The last time I saw you
I loved you, a dream that won't come true

Wait me at the hill of Acropolis

Unwakeable dream
The past is never again

Even though I can't go back
I will be reborn and I will look for you
In the meantime, wait for me




Presented with eyes feasting on insects, I hold my breath
The stroked heart spills out
The refreshing sun
Mixed with the pitter-patter of rain

The torn chest dances, questioning emptiness
A white voice, leaking breath in the sun

Lewdly opened wounds
Turn to nothingness, in the wind of dogma
Your heart begins to melt away

In the dim morning, echoes a farewell

The torn chest dances, questioning emptiness
Right now, I just want to be alone

A single spring, even you with a delicate neck and crawling on the ground

Love me

~
Mezmerized by those eyes
Those bug eating eyes
My breathing just stops
I calm my heart and
It just sheds a tear
The bright and refreshing
Sunlight
Mixes itself round and round
Along with the sound of the rain

My torn out heart let
It dance now
I question the emptiness
The white voices
Leaking of my breath
In the sun

The obscene exposure
Of the wound
Becomes nothing like the
Dogma's own wind
You're now melting
Your heart is melting

In the dark morning
I hear you whisper
Sayonara

My torn out heart let
It dance now
I question the emptiness
Right now I wanna be alone now

It's the season of spring
Weeping eyes cry tears
Your neck-less body
Crawls can't save you now
Love me

Abandon hope
Abandon hope

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KODOU (meaning : incite)

Somehow, that distant face which seems so sad will undoubtedly be lost and disappear by tomorrow
I wonder...
When did my eyes started to die ? 

What is waiting for me tomorrow as I sing and live without meaning?
Alone in my room as my heartbeat screams
Don't kid yourself and don't fool yourself

I am addicted to the perceived fate
I am alone I ling on to this fate
Don't kid yourself and don't wound yourself

Kill the voice
Blind the eyes
Wander aimlessly as you drown in gloom
That's right I won't rely on anyone anymore
Your sharp voice is something I keep in my heart...
all of it in the dark

The rain that doesn't stop
The noise that doesn't stop
The ache that doesn't stop
The love that doesn't stop
The song that doesn't stop

I can't stop it anymore
I can't handle t anymore

Kill the voice 
Close your eyes
Drown in the darkness 
Roam around
I keep inside your keen voice...
All in darkness

It's such an irony this bright sunny weather
" Good Morning "
 


Higeki wa Mabuta wo Oroshita Yasashiki Utsu / 悲劇は目蓋を下ろした優しき鬱
(meaning : Tragedy is a gentle depression that lowers its lids)


In the deep blue sea, you surfaced -
Closing your eyes from the act of living
The slowly inserted life is white
No one touches the steel heart

In the deep blue sea, I wished for you -
It's okay for you to be weak as you are
Can you hear it? Your frozen voice to you
I want to touch the present that words cannot describe

Tomorrow
Is sleeping deeper than the unseen deep sea, even deeper, so deep, deep, deep, sleeping tomorrow

Deep blue
Because surely, things I can't forget are painful
Deep blue
With what voice, with what words, can you tell me something?

In the deep blue sea, tears mix -
No one notices, not even the meaning of crying
Feeling a life that cannot be saved
Just for now, please live

You, sleeping deeper than the unseen deep sea

Deep blue
Before you know it, the days of getting hurt too much
Deep blue
In the season when winter sleeps, I'll go with a bouquet




304号室、白死の桜 (1999)

From the window, as always, the cherry blossoms sway in the wind
Swaying, swaying, swaying, swaying gently

My consciousness fades away again today
Who are you ? I can't remember anything
Taking my hand, you grip it tightly
And tears spill from our clasped hands

Your endlessly flowing eyes seemed to be saying something
Your scent, for some reason, feels nostalgic...
In this room, surely I'll lose my life alone
Unable to find even a single flower...

The scattered flowers hurry in the wind
In the white room, blown by the wind

With each accumulation of pain in the days
You embraced my emaciated, ugly body
As it came to an end, I remembered someone precious
Tomorrow, I'll turn to ash and return to dust
From the window, I can see the cherry blossoms, I want to sleep beneath those cherry blossoms
In your warm, enveloping hands...
In room 34, quietly carried away
Never to forget you again

From now on, I'll sway in the wind with the cherry blossoms, remembering you

Swaying gently
Swaying gently



Devil in me

Here's the translation of the Japanese lyrics:

"In the everyday that dazzles,
Even if life seems unfulfilling, no one's eyes meet.
It's a lifelong regret,
Being born with this personality,
Still, ahead of this, a desolate void,
Immersed in self-denial,
Who is at fault?
Is it my personal hell?

Welcome here,
Breaking the spirit,
The overly gentle lies,
Understanding more than anyone else,
That's what I was.

Teach me how to live,
Who is at fault?
Is it my personal hell?

On the broken rope,
Risking tomorrow,
Diving into wishes,
Surely, that place
Should be the world I longed for,
Let's say goodbye.

In the everyday that dazzles,
Even if life seems unfulfilling, no one's eyes meet.
It's a lifelong regret,
Being born with this personality,
Still, ahead of this, a desolate void,
Immersed in self-denial,
Who is at fault?
Whose personal hell is it?

On the broken rope,
Risking tomorrow,
Diving into wishes,
Surely, that place
Should be the world I longed for,
Let's say goodbye.

I'll give it to you in your place,
Everything lived in disgrace.

What did you really love?"


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